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想起，以前还蛮可笑...小时一直受父母亲的宠爱，最后变成了宠坏。当时，跟爸爸的感情很好，当时我可以说是一个正统的“香蕉人“除了英文之外其他语言都不会，当时还讨厌我的母语。
小学我本身一直都小少爷脾气，以者都想要我要的东西并不喜欢听见别人说我的坏话。还记得是二年级还是三年级那年，有人说我小气我随时反桌子然后喊他就..走了。10岁那年，
我已经会用华文讲话其讲的话中没有用英语了，那年是我生命中的第一个转轴点。当时，我爸不肯买玩具给我，我就跟他闹了，吵架了，我甚至跑出家门。追后我还是回家了，我第一吃跟我爸吵架就因为他没给我当时要的玩具....第一我看我爸发怒，从此感情疏散。那年我一直欺骗我父母说我做完功课，结果给妈妈发现到了...就给她骂了一顿。那时，我想着：“上课没交功课给老师打了，现在盈满你们是因为想要讨你们的欢喜来让你们买东西给我，结果还被你骂了，错在那里？“我就跑进家里小储藏室里锁自己，哭着说我不要听你们讲你们的话.....过后，才出来。从此整个人性格冷淡了。五到六年级我开始会跟别人讲话交流，但脾气那些还在。我一位多年的好朋友，他真的给我一个很好的印象，他人很好人耐性不错，可以容忍我当时整人的方式(我捉弄你，你不嫩捉弄我）。除了他之外我还认识多一位好友，他跟我实在补习认识的，常在补习那里一起玩...当年我父母对我的态度变了很多我爸和我很少讲话，我妈很关心我同时不太要理我。中学初中开始时，我小学那些态度还在..初一差点那椅子扫人...只有那个我再初一又印象的事。初二初三又是冷淡的人格....初三会比较好会玩到有点神经..尤其是假期前。高一我个性会比较活波，比较没那么冲动（但是偶尔会）发现行为好很多了根往年，跟父母沟通较好了，比较玩得起，改善很多学很多，都是我认识的几位朋友影响的，还有因一个人而激发的...结果夺取她人的心失败，多亏我几位朋友的开导过了这关。遗失是获得，获得是遗失。我们的眼睛只能看眼前的，不要忘了我们懂得转动。

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恨..一时..不要恨一生,
被伤害恨一时,
望不了受的伤害不要恨受伤起源,
了解接受,
埋恨它医疗不了自己的伤，
装作没事帮不了许多，要懂得宽大心怀.........
很一个人不如学习如何和好，要懂得原谅但却要记得....说是很容易，行动却很难，但没有试过是放弃....
主要是懂得过自己那一关。

我故事的碎片....

这是一些照片，虽然做的不是很好，但经历了...我想从新开始再走...

快乐但悲伤

下雨....

回想曾经因为得不到一个人的心，
落下了泪....
现在落下泪水因为不知现在喜欢的人感受，
不知道该如何，
对自己现在面对的一切不知该如何，

自己需要时间来适应所给以的新责任...

无论如何我的过去已经是我个人的故事在怎样也改不了，
现在在感情这方面也已是一称零，
现在看着未来，
准备踏入这路，
休息够了旧了，
包扎自己伤口，
一个人的过去不是他的未来，
一个字多意何况一句话，

让自己一个机会，

原谅别人比原谅自己容易，

让我重新走....

我以前遗失的朋友，喜欢人都会前进，

这次让我也学如何前进我走的道路.....

Found the thing i lost...

Today, On the road of my life i found somthing that i have thrown away...never thought just by seeing someone from my past gave it back to me...i thought it had been lost by me...it was lost inside of me..that i was never to see it again...never felt it truly even when a new one was made by myslef to give to someone else again..the truth hit me..when i finally realize it had moved on..
我被快乐及悲伤充满，眼里的泪水不知是欢乐的还是伤心的，这种感觉跟一个奶咖啡一样，不苦也不甜...没有很重的牛奶及咖啡味。最后，只微笑的喝下这杯咖啡...原来我以为不见的却已经离开了我..其实我自己也走向前..呵呵=)...这是我为之前追的所放开的..原来已经自己走了，原来只是如果....希望先在不会变成一称零...

Things arent the way they seem

这次让我走孤独的路....只需要孤单陪我...让我..看过世界的假面目看看真实...这次..我...这次.....让绝望吞噬我...让黑暗包围我...假泪伤别人，假笑伤自己..Hmm quite negative thoughts right?but than agian things arent wad they are suppose the way they seem.
Let me explain"这次让我走孤独的路....只需要孤单陪我" This time let me walk down the the path alone with only loneliness accompanying me. The Hidden Meaning is that if i found someone that can break away lonelyness in this path that someone is true to me
." 让我..看过世界的假面目看看真实..."let me see through the fake mask of this world and look at the reality that is behind it.The Hidden Meaning is if that i want to try and change the world i must see through what is behind the fake things that are covering it adn see the truth because if one is to know the truth that means one already know a way to change it.
"这次..我...这次.....让绝望吞噬我...让黑暗包围我.."this time let despair consume me...let darkness suround me.The Hidden Thought is that if one can find hope in despair is a hope worth holding onto, if one is to find light in the darkness of reality it is worth for one to cheerish.
"假泪伤别人，假笑伤自己"Fake Tears Hurt someone, A fake Smile hurt ourslef.The Thought is That people who can Fake A tear is quite manipulative,And try to forced yourslef to smile isnt good for yourslef cause it shows that ur hidding things inside you,and it will keep on pilling up untill one day it all came apart.
All i WAnt To say is That Things arent suppose to be what you think because It Is not bound to you but itslef.

Basic things bout trying to be a leader

Look around...u'll notice take a thought once in awhile..leaders..If you want to be come leader you must havethe skills or master the basic on the things tat you want to lead skill or mastery that arent made up, you also must have a way of conviencincing people..confident is not enough it also may leads to your down fall, overconfidents is never realize untill u fall than u'll notice it , it's everyones' nature you'll never know how much someone or something means to u untill u lost it...if you want to become a leader , u must carry the weight of your action u must learn when to listen when to act according to yourslef ....if anything happens dont try to push the blame on to someone else...because no matter how someone forced you to walk down a path hat u're wanting to try or not, u can blame them because they force you..just ask urslef this whos foot is the one on the path?